It’s always about love

I lay awake for many nights imagining how I would react, trying to figure out what I’d do first.

I thought of who I would tell, who I’d need to call, what I’d need to do. Then I’d realise I had forgotten someone in my plans, or hadn’t thought of the best approach, until it occurred to me that maybe I simply wouldn’t tell anyone and therefore would have more time to work through the details.

Mostly, I thought of how good a person I was in my heart, in my soul and how much I would give – and to be completely honest, I thought of the relief that I would have. How some of the stress in my life, would finally stop.

I didn’t win the $100 million lotto draw that week, and I couldn’t help but feel disappointed. I’m sure the lady who did win the $100 million, in fact $107 million, deserved it and will be a very worthwhile recipient. But I did think that I would have done really awesome things with that money, taken care of all my family and friends of course but most importantly donated a lot to medical research and a few other favourite charities.

But that’s the thing isn’t it – you don’t win lotto based on how deserving you are, or how good you are. There’s no judgement, no criteria – except for Lady Luck being on your side of course! And so, in that moment, I realised I was nothing more than a gambler – and a losing one at that!

But here’s the thing that I really did start to think – that my life was actually pretty good as it was. Yep, there sure are stresses and I’m pretty sure 99.5 per cent of them could be taken care of with a massive win of cash. But how many more problems, albeit of a different kind, would occur as a result of that win?

It seems that in life there is always a price to pay for a win, always an equal and opposite reaction to any action, always something new to contend with. I’m not meaning to sound negative at all, but it sure did help me to stop wishing for things that just hadn’t happened and I started to count my blessings instead.

And do you know what? When I look around, at my glorious son, at the people I’m blessed to be surrounded by, at what the future is look like, I realised I had a hell of a lot more than $100 million already.

For every bill that a financial win could dissolve, there are a million things that money simply can’t buy – and they are really the things I’d rather have.

What a woman wants is to have every stress removed from her life and be able to give generously to all things that are important to her – but what a woman needs to realise is it is her love she gives generously, her soul she creates shelter with, her passion she protects with that makes an incredible, significant and meaningful life.

And this is better than all the money in the world. So please, this year, don’t just assess your security by your bank balance or ability to give financially to those around you.

Whilst it is of course admirable and necessary to have financial goals, please also audit yourself on the things that really matter – your ability to love, your ability to give of yourself, your generosity of spirit. Look around you, make love your currency and honesty your valuation. I promise it will be worth it.

I hope you have a fantastic start to 2019 and I look forward to sharing the year ahead with you.

With much love

Abby x

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